Family

What is family? Do they have to be blood related? How come sometimes even if we are surrounded by family we feel so alone?

I think family does not have to be blood related, if you're close enough to someone, I don't mean just close I mean like super close, close enough to know in a split second when you are upset, if you care about them in a way you are unable to describe, then I would consider them family.
Family, Definition: any group of persons closely related by blood, as parents, children, uncles, aunts, and cousins
What the definition should say: a group of people who are generally not blood relations but who share common attitudes, interests, or goals and, frequently, live together
My definition: people who care about eachother and have a bond that is unfathomable by words on a simple page.
Even if you are surrounded by people of blood relation, you can feel so alone. I am not going to try to tell you there is something psycologically wrong with you. There are going to be times when you feel like no one is there to catch you if you fall,when no one is there to tell you that you tried your hardest, or that they believe you can do anything. Your family are the ones who are going to pick you up and dust you off, tell you that no matter what you do you are going to be amazing. From my experience they don't come out and say it but somehow you feel it in your heart and see that its true in their eyes.
I have both my parents, and two brothers, but my family is also made up of four brothers and three sisters. I love them all and couldn't be more blessed.

Chinese Cinderella: Short

In my school we are reading the book Chinese Cinderella. I can relate to the main character Adeline, I go through a lot of the same things she did: my mom hitting me, finding refuge through writing and my friends, my siblings torturing me, my parents praising my siblings more than they even notice me, and many more. My friends are the ones who made the connection and mainly because they found I was Chinese, through Adeline I find guidance and I know what to do. Like Adeline I hope to save myself instead of being a damsel in distress and waiting for a prince to come. I know in real life you have to make your own happy ending, its not going to come to you.

Afraid of Affection

I used to be afraid of opening up to people, I was so scared of people getting to know the real me. I believed that letting someone into your heart was just offering them a chance to hurt you. Like in a battle if you let a soldier into your base you just let them kill off your troops. Part of the reason I believed this is because of the fact that everyone who said they would never leave, left. Everyone who said they would never hurt me, did. Most promises people made to me, were broken. When I fell, there was no one there to catch me. I stopped trusting, and just prepared for the pain. At least that way it wasn't a surprise, I built walls around my heart, spent most of my time alone. I buried myself in my books, art, and music.
Until sixth grade, I felt like my family didn't care about me. My parents decided I was too old for the nicknames they used to call me. They stopped telling me they loved me. My older brother used to talk to me until I fell asleep everynight my parents fought. He used to sit at the end of my bed and held me everytime my parents yelled so loud we could hear them. When he started middle school suddenly he was too cool to be the brother I could turn to for anything. It was the most depressing time in my life. It still hasn't gotten any better but I made amazing friends who seem to care about me more than my family does. I realized that throughout my life I am going to meet a lot of people who are going to try to break me, but as long as I have my friends, they won't be able to.

Smack Talking

This is my first blog so it probably won't be very good but, you know, whatever.

Everywhere people talk behind others' backs... some find it harmless, to most it's torture. If its someone you don't know or don't like, it is bullying. If its a friend of yours, its betraying their trust or backstabbing, if you will. If you talk behind someone's back what good does that do? Sure you have a moment or two to laugh about it with your friends, but is it really that 'cool' to be cruel to someone who thinks they can trust you? Or might be hurting more than you could ever imagine? It could also matter in the long run, (this is hypothetical) say you want to apply for a job, what if the person in charge was someone you talked about in school, you might not remember it but that person probably will. He or she wouldn't want you to work there or might let you work there just so they could make you miserable. If you talk about someone that doesn't make you a better person it even makes you uglier on the inside. I used to have a friend but she made my trust in her dissolve by talking about me to my best friend. She lost my faith and trust so people started to talk about her because they thought she was so mean or so weird I decided to stop being her friend. Now she has only two friends at our school because no one trusts her. When you talk about someone it only brings you trouble, whether it is emotional, losing friends, or losing peoples trust. No matter what it is bound to happen so why not stop? Tell whoever is smack talking to stop, or if you are too afraid, subtly change the subject. If its you who is doing it, how would you feel if it happened to you? Who knows it could be hapening right now. It happens a lot and there was a situation recently where two of my friends were talking about our friend I even said some things about her that I wish I could take back. I won't tell her but I at least owe it to her to write this blog.